Hope?

I may have a shot at getting out of my room...

I went to see Bishop Allen on campus for free today. They played great, I bought a shirt and an ep. I shouldn't drop anymore money like this... I have a 250 dollar charge still left on my account to complete my meal plan. This would leave me with around 500 dollars for the rest of the semester. Take off an automatic 200 for gas, and that leaves 300. In November I'll have to pay car insurance for a month or so. Take off another 250. This leaves me with 50 dollars spending cash for the rest of the semester.

Oh dear.

I can only hope for some birthday cash at the end of next month.

Oh, the room. At the concert I saw Pat, a guy in my public speaking class, and his girlfriend Sarah, who's in my Moons and Planets class. Something I said brought up roommates, I'm complaining about Tim all the time anyways, but Pat mentioned that he needs a roommate ASAP or he'll be assigned one or be forced to pay for a single. This gives me a chance to move in and get out of Hendrix. The only drawback of Grissom is that it is a freshmen dorm AND all male. This is a bad thing, very bad. I like all my hallmates, but i don't know if I could take another month of sitting in a room with someone who won't say a word to me. Today - not a word. No acknowledgment whatsoever. I told him it was okay to turn off a lamp when I was reading and he wanted to sleep. I received no verbal response, only the clicking of the switch and me being left in the dark, no longer able to read.

I had an idea for a painting, where I'd have a very narrow cross-section of a pond. I want to draw this out and eventually watercolor it with browns and greens, getting something like those old Frog and Toad story illustrations. I'll have to pitch the animal drawing idea to Art Forum on Tuesday. There's many things I have to do in between now and then, though.

I have to work and devise a math project, I have to write a short paper on sound editing, I have to think of an idea for my speech *which I would not like to do on television, nor really work with the guy*, the inevitable spanish assignments, a Moons and Planets review sheet and extra credit, and a radio show.

This weekend I attended the radio lock-in in order to familiarize myself with the rest of the crew and the station itself. I love the station, the equipment is fabulous, but the club seems kinda cliquey? This is probably only because of the fact that I'm new and still don't know anyone, but I couldn't help from recieving a very snobby, phony attitude coming from many people there. Whether it came from the music directors arguing the difference between pop and rock, or the incredibly rude comment that a kid with a bone disease made about the correction of my use of the term record, I'm not very comfortable with the people there. I learned no one's name, and nobody really introduced themselves to me.

Argh. Today I thought once again of ending my college career after this semester. I'm uncertain on so many things in life right now. Job? College? Family Affairs? Independence? Upon other personal things. I'm wondering if I can't just make up a demo and send it to some agencies or radio stations for a production job. Maybe I should just move home and get my own place?

If you heard the big news, there's a new radiohead cd coming out in ten days on the internet only. Apparently, the band is releasing it themselves, and being the kings of music they are, they will also be releasing it UK-Only on record AND cd in a "DISCOBOX" sometime in December. Pretty neat when you think about it.

My lamp burned out, otherwise I'd be painting right now. I woke up around 2 pm today and 12 hours later I'm not so tired. Maybe I can get away with a couple hours' nap until morning and my hike clear across campus to Spanish.





This monotony is killing me already.






I'm going home in a week and a half to see my brother, family, and Erinn on the way back. I need out. I need sometime without assimilation.